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Hello!!??? Is anybody there??!!!
Aloneness is what has plagued me I am deeply alone whether Im with people or not, I'm still alone, who knew this feeling of abandonment is very crucial..what to do I'm so lost. I found myself struggling with with my emotions trying not to let myself get drowned with them, but it seems like the right thing to at this time let my emotions take control and let it go from there whether in the end it turned out bad or good, I'm ready.
What to choose..??!!!
Choices everyone has them whether we want to acknowledge them or not; we are here to understand life and learn from it. I must say this has been a roller coster ride but I love it all that's all I can do is love it all. I realized my life is not as bad off as I thought it's just one hick-up and I cried like a baby I just thought I was going what I had to do but in all I wasn't I lost some material things but my pride and my wisdom grew even stronger. I lived and I am conquering...
Where to Now!!!!????
Stuck, that's all I can think about is being stuck in this emotional state of mind. I can't get passed it I'm stuck I don't like it, I'm miserable and it sucks I'm tired of this fake smile and constant thoughts of me not having a clue what I'm going to do next I hate when I don't know I want to know I don't like this feeling I have so much going on in my head I can't deal, sometimes I ask myself is it worth it, then I get a piece of hope I didn't come out here to give up and become like the rest I have enough faith in God and myself I can make it.
Family?!???!!??
Family!! What is family can someone explain that to me I'm trying to grasp what is family to me, I try to do what is right by my family but sometimes what might be right for your family my not be what's right by you. You stretch and bend for family because that's what you are suppose to do. But is it wrong for me to expect that in return yes it family but it doesn't make it fair I do a lot for my family but in return I get nothing . I'm very much so fed up with the family is suppose to be here for one another well to be honest I don't see that much happening for me. Am I wrong for feeling this way or is it just human nature who knows but I do know, treat people like you want to be treated.
A New Dawn
A new dawn is always around the corner, in any dark place I have never experienced so many negative emotions all at once I was scared and of course alone but one thing I must say and do is keep my head held high and move on to better things I can't simmer on what has happened but the positive outlook on what's going to happen. Focus on being successful and being able to enjoy my life as I should as everyone should. I'm filled with excitement and passion that's going to drive me even further, so I say rise and bask in this moment I have called my lowest of the low because it's going to be what beings me to my next point success.
